Here it is 2023 and I am suffering from PTSD brought on by the horrific actions of those who say they love America. I am still traumatized by what I saw happen on January 6, 2021 in Washington D.C. I witnessed our government, my government, come to the brink of extinction by so called patriots of my great nation.
My heart has palpitations when I think how these are the same people who were offended by the NFL player Colin Kapernick respectfully kneeling when the National Anthem, The Star Spangled Banner was being played before a football game. I watched as they took the very symbol of this great nation on flagpoles and used them as weapons to terrorize and to hurt those defending the The United States Capital building and in essence our United States Constitution and our democracy.
I was astonished that those who said that they respected the “Blue “ and stood behind the rights of Law Enforcement Officers to do their jobs took fence posts and and brutally extinguished the life of a an Officer and injure other officers. I watched as they chased and harassed some of these same officers as they sought to protect and defend that sacred building. These are the identical people who would shoot someone breaking and entering a business or while looking at an unfinished home as Ahmaud Arbery was doing when he was murdered.
I was amazed as the elected officials of this country frantically rushed out of the chambers. They ran to prevent themselves from being massacred or killed by the frantic blood thirsty mob bent on the officials' destruction. Yet these same lawbreaking people in that mob decry the rioters in city streets to react to unjust killing of innocent citizens.
My heart hurt as I observed with amazement as a spear carrying bare chested man with antlers, that looked more like devil horns, sat in the Speaker’s Chair shouting that the rioters should pray as the unruly horde strew to the floor papers from the polished mahogany desks of hastily exited legislators.
The bedlam I saw that day made my stomach churn. These are the same people that fill the comment sections on social media with words of trying to preserve our democracy. These are the people who came from all over the United States to disrupt and un-unite us and to prevent the peaceful transition of power.
My PTSD is trying to disrupt my life as we enter into a new election cycle. Why? As much as I want to have a peaceful life I realize that the many of these people are walking around unpenalized and unscathed by the terror they unleashed on January 6, 2021. Many are still not aligned with the goal for us to be free and live within the parameters of a Democratic Republic. They seem to have if its not my way I’d rather burn it down than to try and work together with those of opposing views.
During the last few weeks we’ve all seen the government processes grind to a halt by the unwillingness of one party to work with the other party. It as if a slow moving insurrection is taking place in the halls of Congress. I am afraid for our country. Will we make it through to the other side of this situation? I just don’t know. I hope so. I do know that the Bible states that a House divided against itself cannot stand. I am hoping that I am wrong and that things will turns around. I am willing to not be a victim and to not be consumed by my PTSD.
